The verdict after six months

Aiyah.... The verdict was passed today. BJ is not ready for mainstream.

My dream dashed for some moment. Even as I write this, my eyes are kinda teary, I am filled with a pent-up mixed emotions. To have someone tell you right in your face: "James is not ready for mainstream" came like almost, a death sentence.

The teachers are mainly concerned about his social communication skills, and his constant shutting down and withdrawal (hibernation).

Deep down, I know that perhaps BJ is not ready for mainstream yet. But to hear it from the HOD and class teacher was definitely unpleasant.

What shall I do? I cannot continue to indulge in self-pity. I am begininning to think that his autism is in fact moderately severe. And maybe that is just one reality that I have to psycho myself to accept.

Sigh, the road to acceptance is such long and winding....